This woman and I have been together a long time. We have history. I’ve loved and hated her. I’ve failed to love her fully. I’ve fed her lies & told her she wasn’t good enough, and have even allowed others to tell her she wasn’t good enough. I’ve allowed her to be broken. I’ve allowed others to treat her disrespectfully, and cringed with shame, as she treated others disrespectfully.
I’ve watched her run through brick walls, battling for others who wouldn’t even stand with her. I’ve also seen her run full speed in the wrong direction, and into scary, dangerous places. I didn’t stop her from turning her back on family and friends, yet I’ve also seen her get back up and choose to love despite her confusion. I have remained silent, paralyzed by fear, as she fought battles in her mind, heart and soul, sometimes failing on all fronts. I’ve stood by while she wounded herself and others.
This woman has screwed up many times, as a woman, a girlfriend, a sister, a daughter, and as a friend, because she doesn’t always say or do the “right things”. She has a smart mouth, and she has secrets. She has scars… because she has a history.
Some people love this woman, some like her, and some people don’t care for her at all.
She has done good in her life. She has done bad in her life. She sometimes goes days without makeup, or leaving the house. Half the time, she doesn’t get dressed up. She is impulsive, reclusive, ornery, and sometimes silly. She sometimes pretends to be someone she is not. But she is who she is. Every mistake, failure, trial, disappointment, misadventure, success, joy, and achievement have made her into the person who she is today.
You can love her or not. But if she loves you, she will do it with her whole heart, and she will make no apologies for the way she feels.
This Woman is a WARRIOR. She’s not perfect, but God calls her WORTHY! She’s UNSTOPPABLE; broken but not vanquished, battle-weary but still beautifully standing. She loves and is loved. She is fully alive. She is changing and growing, becoming more compassionate, more forgiving, more loving, and even more opinionated. She is also Grace-filled. She is Brave! This woman is me, reaching out in love to you…
I love you, and hope you will love me. Together we are invincible, until the moment when we aren’t. But let’s make the journey together, gathering the others as we go. WE ARE FAMILY!